God Moments

How many times do we go through our day and not know if we have touched someone's life?  I'm talking about the "big" touches.  You know the ones.  I'd like to think of them as God moments.  Those times in our lives when God puts just the right thoughts, words, body language and pours a bit of the Holy Spirit in there and then...wah la!  It's a God moment.  A moment you didn't plan or create, but were a part of and may not even know it.

I've had a couple of those this week. 

Nope, God was not putting those beautiful words in my mouth.  I was on the receiving end.

As a mother, caretaker, educator, wife, taxi driver, housekeeper, maid, and slave laborer (did I say that??)  :-)  among a few of my job descriptions, I many times feel alone.  Shocking, right?  I'm surrounded by children all day, but I feel utterly and entirely alone.  I feel lost and scared.  I worry that I'm not doing enough.  Sometimes I worry that I'm doing too much and I'll start having seizures again.  And, honestly, sometimes I just worry.  I feel lost and did I mention alone??  sigh

However, this week two people that read my blog (seriously, I didn't know anyone still did), called or spoke to me in person and touched me.  It made me think of a song that I learned growing up, "This Little Light of Mine."  I could really see the light of Christ in them.  They touched me.  They reminded me I wasn't alone.  I'm doing okay.  I'm on the right path.

So, today or tomorrow or even next week if you feel the urge to say something (nice or constructive) to someone...listen to your heart.  Listen to God.   Share the light of Christ with others. 

You have no idea what your actions today might spark in someone tomorrow.

Peace and Happiness,
Sara

Floating

It's been one of those days.  We've all had them.  It started off as a decent sunshiny day and morphed into something else. 

Let's just say I felt the need to text a friend for a boost.  My foot went through my porch (because it's rotten and needs to be replaced...I was really thinking, until said foot went through, that it just needed to be repainted...sigh).  While doing the laundry, I found my son's blessed magnet cross in the dryer...in pieces.  I took the children to a Catholic school to check it out (I felt like a total failure when I left).  And, I still feel like we are in limbo with the fostering thing.  You know there is really no reason to go on at this point.  It was one of those days.

I felt overwhelmed and alone by the end of the day.  As I sit here fighting the tears, I feel a bit stressed and I'm trying to remember that I should be giving this up, right?? 

Then, I sit and think about all of the people who don't have a porch to put their foot through.  They don't have a laundry machine that works to do the laundry...or they don't have enough clothes to wash.  What about those who don't have the chance to be home with their children and watch them learn?  And, what about those foster children who feel lost and alone??

Oh, that's right.  I'm lucky.  I'm blessed.  I'm not alone.

So, as I ride along in my boat in the big ocean we call life.  May God be my captain and may I no longer float along, but ride with the wind in my hair and the sun in my face (even if it burns) because He has a plan for me!!

Peace and happiness,
Sara 

Stillness

There are moments, late at night, when everything is still in my home.  I enjoy this quiet and peaceful time.  I am able to collect my thoughts and be prayerful.  However, there are occasions where I find myself thinking about my future.  Unfortunately, I think too much sometimes.

I tend to think past the rapidly approaching sacraments for my youngest and oldest child.  I zoom right past summer fun.  I fly past things like family vacation and other wonderful and joyous things that we plan to do in the near future. 

For me, the trip in my mind takes me so far in the future that I imagine myself in my home late at night with the stillness surrounding me...knowing my children are in their own homes embracing their own peaceful time.

May God's Peace be with all of you!